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Sunday, May 29, 2022

Small Life

It's the smallness of life that counts. It's the routines that save us. It's our connection to simple objects that connects us to everything.

 

Well, I hear you huff, that's easy for you to say! You whose whole life can be encapsulated in a thimble. No wonder you like thinking small!

 

I'll ignore that grouchy detractor and return to my moutons. Maybe because of the Covid confinement of the past two years. I am vividly aware of the importance of household objects. Of the household itself. The Lares and Penates? The goddess of the hearth, whose name I used to know but have forgotten though I think she'll forgive me because if there's anything I'm sure of (on my good days) it's that the gods are not vengeful but tolerant of our weaknesses and more forgiving than we are to ourselves.

 

Where was I? Household objects. I enter my kitchen and am in my own private world. Every item in the room has a meaning, a purpose, or a history—and sometimes all three. I contrast the peace I feel in that room with the malaise, the lack of ease, I feel when out in the world, in others' houses, with other people.

 

The pots hang over my head much more securely now than when I first hung up that makeshift rack, now that Bob the Builder hung it the right way. Most of the pots are Paderno and most of them were purchased during Paderno's annual sales—and long before the company was sold to the Chinese.  A truly house-proud, pan-proud housekeeper would revel in shining the bottoms of those pots. I don't. Occasionally I think I should, but most of the time I don't even give it any thought.

 

But such great pots. Even unpolished they give me pleasure for their sturdy construction and the evenness of their heat. And for the variety of their sizes: this one and that, two of them in another size—and an appropriate use for each one.

 

If it's not sacrilegious to say so, I feel a strong communion with my cast-iron skillets. They've been in my life for sixty years, some of them. Others we picked up at garage sales when aging owners realized the skillets were getting too heavy to lift. I'll admit that my left wrist no longer wants me to pick up the ten-inch skillet and tip it over a bowl to empty it. So I work around that little glitch. But it doesn't alter my admiration for these kitchen work-horses.

 

Moving down the wall from the pots I come to the heavy-duty hot-pads that keep my hands from being burned. Everyone should set aside their cute printed and quilted pads and find a couple pairs of these thick commercial pads, available at restaurant supply houses. Put the cute ones on display wherever you like, but use the heavy ones, which actually protect your fingers.

 

To the left is the hook for tea towels. The only ones I hang there are the towels handwoven by my friend Elizabeth over the years. Back in the days when we put on a huge Christmas carolling party, Elizabeth would bring a couple of her tea towels as a hostess gift, and that alone made those big parties worth the effort. The towels are part of my daily life, and using them fills me with warmth and appreciation.

 

Our connection to simple objects connects us to everything.

 

 
 
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Sunday, May 22, 2022

Shouts and Whispers

I write in shouts and whispers,

depending on the day, the mood,

the caffeine level in my blood,

the degree of success in sleeping the night before.

And yet I do write,

against the odds,

enjoying the having written

more than the writing.

 

Mostly,

I write to say

we're all the same—

an admission hard to believe

if you recall my history of rushing to judgment.

So, though we are all one

and the same,

I myself display the rift,

the (unmendable?) split

between the conscious and the unconscious.

In my compass,

the North is where

the unconscious becomes conscious,

a transformation devoutly to be wished,

but one not attained

without heartbreaking,

backbreaking

effort.

 

 
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Shouts and Whispers

I write in shouts and whispers,

depending on the day, the mood,

the caffeine level in my blood,

the degree of success in sleeping the night before.

And yet I do write,

against the odds,

enjoying the having written

more than the writing.

 

Mostly,

I write to say

we're all the same—

an admission hard to believe

if you recall my history of rushing to judgment.

So, though we are all one

and the same,

I myself display the rift,

the (unmendable?) split

between the conscious and the unconscious.

In my compass,

the North is where

the unconscious becomes conscious,

a transformation devoutly to be wished,

but one not attained

without heartbreaking,

backbreaking

effort.

 

 
Copyright © 2022 Ann Tudor
Musings blog: http://www.scenesfromthejourney.blogspot.com
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Sunday, May 15, 2022

One Life to Live

You've got one life to live

in which to do everything under the Sun.

Laugh a lot

Live every moment

Follow your dream

Stop to smell roses

Trace a moonbeam

Open your heart

 

 

One life at a time, that's all we get.

There may well be others

but we don't know yet.

Here's my advice, and I won't say it twice:

Avoid deathbed regret

Start living right now!

 

 

 
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Sunday, May 8, 2022

Peas and the Knife-Edge of Uncertainty

It's funny, but I don't feel uncertainty as a knife edge. A ridge, perhaps; but nothing as compelling as a knife edge.

 

Living with uncertainty, however (and hello! that's the human condition) can move us toward our truest power. Here I am again, on the knife edge of actually committing myself to a thought. And as usual, I quit. Not going there.

 

So here's what else I have been pondering. Not as deep as the idea of my truest power, but . . . but this is who I am. Therefore true to that extent, at least.

 

I love peas. In my first spoken-word CD I have a long essay about peas, so I won't go into the whole of my history with peas. And you don't have to tell me that we're a full two months away from pea season in Ontario. But here's something new.

 

At the summer farmers' markets I can't resist buying a quart of peas every week. Real shucking peas, not the edible-pod kind. And then I get home and face having to shell the whole quart. A pleasant enough task if you take the peas outside, sit in the rocking chair, put the bowl in your lap, and run your thumb-nail along the seam of each pea in an unhurried manner before popping out those peas-in-a-pod. You can pretend you're replicating earlier times.

 

And then one cookbook or another told me to lightly steam peas in the pod then dip each pod in melted butter and drag the pod through your teeth, releasing all the peas into your mouth along with the skimming of butter. Oh my goodness, does this ever work!

 

It turns out that, much as I love butter, I like the peas just as well when I omit the butter and simply strip the cooked pods with my teeth. And then I realized that I could strip the lightly cooked pods with my fingers and collect the popped-out (unpodded) peas in a bowl. Much easier than shucking them in the raw state.

 

And thus is answered a question I've long had about commercial preservation of peas, whether canned or frozen. THIS must be how they shell them: steam first, then shell by running the shells through some mechanical roller. And here I was imagining a factory of women slitting open those tough pods with a thumb-nail, hour after hour. It's satisfying to have an answer to one of life's pressing questions.

 
 
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Sunday, May 1, 2022

Sing It Out

Truth to tell, you can sing anything.

Send out your thoughts and your prayers

on the wings of song.

To be better heard, intone your words.

Thoughts are things, they tell us.

Spoken aloud, those thoughts become clearer.

But sung? They reach the hearts of all.

They stir the firmament.

 

Sing.

No need for perfection.

Your voice carries weight because it's yours,

not because it is richer or more tuneful than another's.

 

How to sing?

Open the mouth, the throat,

and let sound emerge.

Siren up and down as you give voice to your thoughts

and then glorious unplanned melody to the sound.

 

For maximum effect, sing it out!

Even, if you're shy, a little quiet humming

will carry your thoughts aloft.

And if you are alone, still sing.

Sing a song for us all.

 

 
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