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Sunday, May 17, 2015

Steam, Revisited

I wrote once about the joy of watching steam rise, an entertainment much more dynamic and specific than watching paint dry. In fact, they are not even in the same ballpark.

 

I wrote about pouring water from the kettle into my husband's Bodum pot and my green teapot and watching the steam curl lazily up into the kitchen air. Sinuously and sensuously the steam coiled, uncoiled, re-turned on itself, folded itself back into itself as moving water does. I wrote about it because it was a miracle and because—though I'd been making coffee and tea on that same tray in that same location for a year, I had never before seen the glory of the steam.

 

For several months I let myself be pulled into this magic every morning—one of those things you can put on your list of things to be grateful for.

 

And then—oh, what happened? We ate earlier or later or someone came to visit or—who knows? Whatever it was, something else caught my magpie attention and I forgot about the steam for a few months.

 

But when I went to look for it again, it wasn't there I poured the water, but no illuminated curling steam rose from either the coffeepot or the teapot. I was confused and disappointed, but, as with most disappointments, I got over it and put it out of my mind. If the memory of that magic happened to pop into my head again, I told myself to let it go. It was but a moment's passing fancy.

 

Several weeks ago I made our coffee and tea as usual and there, rising from the pots, were the two respective sensuous curlings of steam, so outstandingly beautiful that I couldn't have missed them. And it came to me: it was a question of light. It all depended on the angle of the sun, which slanted through the open door and lit the steam.

 

I ran to the calendar. It was June 10. And now I know that, just as the swallows return to Capistrano on the same day every year, so will the light hit the steam rising from our pots on June 10. I've enjoyed the experience now for two months, but I know that at some point it will disappear again—only, like the Moon and other sources of mystery, to return after the next long winter as my own private marker of returning magic.

 
 
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Sunday, May 10, 2015

What I Saw on May 1

To think that I saw it on Mulberry Street! Well, on the walk and subway ride to Dearborn Street, really. I took the long way to the subway today. If I remember to allow the time. I walk one or two subway stops beyond our local station for the exercise. But when I haven't allowed time for that, I walk briskly around the block before entering the station. This is my nod to the need for exercise.

 

Today there was a line-up of ten people at the fare booth. Either it was manned by the slowest clerk in the TTC (and they have some pretty slow ones: old guys on the verge of retirement) or, because it was May 1, everyone in the catchment area was buying a Metropass for the month. Exasperated, I finally slipped behind a hapless purchaser, dropped my ticket in the slot, and raced for the subway, which I could hear arriving. I missed it.

 

Oh yes, during my circuitous walk to the subway I couldn't help seeing that—this being May 1—the Toronto Construction Season has officially begun. The south side of Bloor Street was blocked off for what appears to be re-surfacing, which reduced the traffic from four lanes to two. The eastbound, downtown-headed drivers (who wouldn't be caught dead on public transit) were proceeding at a crawl, if at all. I sensed the air filling with road rage.

 

Ian Rankin kept me from noticing a single thing on the subway. I was lucky enough to find a seat, and my eyes didn't leave the page once during the trip.

 

Back on shank's mare, I felt my heart open toward the Asian family that runs the flower store on Broadview just below the Danforth. Their storage area is a shed/garage behind the shop. In order to bring out their seasonal flowers and plants they must push the tall, wheeled, plant-loaded racks over the gravel and mud of the driveway and onto Dearborn, then around the corner and past the coffee shop until they reach their store, at which point each rack has to be emptied and the flowerpots and buckets of cut flowers and flats of plants arranged on the wooden shelves in front of the shop. This morning five of them were at work—one of them a woman my age who was alternately tugging and pushing her much-too-heavy cart.

 

After the turn I saw a For Sale sign put out by a smart owner. The front yard of the house sports a large magnolia tree that is just now in full bloom, and the For Sale sign has miraculously appeared just as the tree is at its most magnificent. Coincidence? I think not.

 

Scylla abounds in many of the little gardens I pass, although my own is almost gone, already superseded by grape hyacinth and my lovely, vicious vinca.

 

 

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Sunday, May 3, 2015

Never Enough

Ain't it the truth!

There's never enough,

no matter how much there is.

Never enough love to fill the crater

created by the bomb blast that is childhood.

 

Lacking a sufficiency of love,

we stuff that hole with stuff—

but there's never enough.

Then, even as we ourselves blast holes

in the psyches of our offspring

(always inadvertently, of course),

we busily fill them

with whatever money can buy,

when what is really needed is time--

slow, quiet, devoted time,

for which we have no time.

 

Happy is she who finally learns

to fill her own crater,

who knows the meaning of "enough,"

who flips through lists and catalogs

and experiences nary a frivolous want

because her crater has been filled.

A friend speculated on what he would do and buy

if he were "really wealthy."

Me? I thought, I AM wealthy.

I need nothing.

Well, maybe one more pair of John Fluevog boots . . .

 

 

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